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Ibu..

IBU

Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim.....................

Apakah masih ada “sahabat” dalam hidupku?? Selama ini hidup menurutku hanyalah bagaimana mendapatkan kesempatan untuk menuju mimpi-mimpiku sedari dulu. Namun, selama itu juga tidak ada “sahabat” yang tetap setia kepadaku, mendoakanku, dan mencintaiku dengan ikhlas karena Allah. Apakah karena aku juga tidak memikirkannya? Aku termakan oleh “ego” ku sendiri. Aku yang tak bisa mengendalikan diri yang masih labil ini.

Aku masih menunggu “sahabat” ku itu. Dimana engkau sekarang? Mengapa tidak menghubungiku lagi. Aku yang sendiri disini hanya terdiam, membisu di tengah hiruk pikuk kota ini. Bagaimana tidak? Jiwa ini tidak tahu lagi mau dibawa kemana arahnya. Kemana angin membawaku kesanalah aku menuju. Ini sangat tidak konsisten. Aku tahu itu. Di dalam pikiran ini hanya “sahabat” yang bisa membantuku di kala susah dan membahagiakanku di kala aku sedih.

Mengapa ini bisa terjadi? Mungkinkah karena ke”tidaksetiakawan”an ku? Aku juga tidak mau menjadi orang yang munafik. Pikiran,,,,,,,, mengapa kau suka sekali membuat aku ragu dengan segala yang aku buat..................................................................................................................???

Guratan wajah ibu membuat aku terfikir tentang beliau. Mengapa aku tidak meminta maaf kepada beliau ketika mau pergi?  Ketika di terminal, seulas senyum wajah ibu mengantarkanku untuk memulai perjalananku lagi. Namun bagaimana dengan ayah? Aku hanya tahu dia jarang memperhatikanku , namun aku tahu dia menyayangiku. Buktinya dia membuat pekerjaan sampingan untuk membiayai kuliahku. Tapi perlakuan kasarnya terhadap mama membuatku tidak senang. Bahkan ada sedikit luka di dalam hatiku. Dan bagaimana caranya mengobati luka itu? Apakah dengan mempelajari bidangku sekarang di pertanian bisa menyembuhkannya? Aku kangen dengan “sahabat” ku yang di SMA. Namun dia tidak pernah menghubungi aku lagi. Mungkin dia juga sibuk dengan pekerjaannya. Alangkah baiknya jika aku tidak mengganngunya dan berfikir positif kepadanya.

Ibu, orang yang sangat sayang kepadaku. Beliau tidak akan membiarkan anaknya mendapat sakit, bahkan selalu memberikan energi positif. Aku sangat salut pada dirimu ibu. Apakah beliau sudah tidur? Semoga Allah memberikan beliau tidur yang sangat nyenyak malam ini. Yaa Allah ampunilah kami jika pada hari ini pernah melalaikan kewajiban kami kepadaMu. 

Look at this picture :)

Before i left Indonesia, they were like a proof to me to go abroad (Cambodia)

And this is My motivation Letter with AIESEC organisation...

MOTIVATION LETTER

Dear My/Mrs

My name is Egith Marshel. I am as student of Plant Breeding Major, Agriculural Faculty, University of Sumatera Utara. I have had experience in organisation in my campus and be an assistant of the laboratories of Agriciltural Sciences. There are Biotecnology and the Basic of Plant Breeding.

My motivation to follow this Global Youth Ambassador Programe by AIESEC is myself and my parents. In this programe there are many benefits that we can get after the exchange programme. AIESEC is the world’s largest student-run organisation that providing over 16.000 international internships in 124 countries and territories each year. AIESEC provides young people the opportunity to develop leadership skills, build a personal network, work abroad, and explore the direction and ambition of their future.  

My parents have given me the support to go abroad. They have given me permitt and support my decision to apply the position as the Exchange Participants AIESEC of Local Comitee of University of Andalas with Sub unit AIESEC in University of Sumatera Utara(USU). They have understand that my participation if i have been chosen as the Exchange Participant will spend much time, thought, energy, and the financal. And they believe that all of this participation can be investation to develop my potential as a person and a proffesional, in order i can be the quality person in the future.

Then, right now i get the chance to go abroad, actually i get Cambodia as the selected country. I chose this country because i want to follow the program as the environmental Project by theme as “Clear and Clean” project. That is interesting for me as agricultural student, and certainly it can be better for me to follow this intership. The program will be held in Phnom Penh as the capital city of this Country. The program divide into some experiences such as Leadership, researching, training, preparation skill, team experiences, debating skill, writing articles, etc. My goal is       I can make a hand-writing about environmental issue expecially about air pollution in the local newspaper.

I hope with this program I can be a different person that useful for the people after a come back from abroad and give contribution to my university (USU) expecially and my country that i love, Indonesia.

                                                                                                            Sincerely,

                                                                                               

                                                                                                         Egith Marshel

 

Refresh.....

THOUSAND MILES LYRICS

BY : BOYCE AVENUE

Making my way downtown, walking fast
Faces pass and Im home bound
Staring blankly ahead, just making my way
Making a way through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder

If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by?
Cause you know Id walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you tonight

Its always times like these when I think of you
And I wonder if you think of me
Cause everythings so wrong and I dont belong
Living in your precious memory

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder

If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by
Cause you know Id walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you tonight

And I, I dont wanna let you know
I, I drown in your memory
I, I dont wanna let this go
I, I dont

Making my way downtown, walking fast
Faces pass and Im home bound
Staring blankly ahead, just making my way
Making a way through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder

If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass us by?
Cause you know Id walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you

If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by?
Cause you know Id walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
If I could just hold you tonight

Read more: Boyce Avenue - A Thousand Miles Lyrics | MetroLyrics

I like this song. I love it. This song can be a soundtrack of my life :) :)

Himadita Nursery (HN)

Firstly, I want to describe about my strength and weakness and How do I manage your weakness and capitalize your strength: My strength is I have potential to develop people to become a better person, actually i know about this when i was a head of Research and Development Division in my organisation in my campus. The name of the organisation is Himadita Nursery(HN), Agricultural Faculty, University of Sumatera Utara. I have many friends in my organisation that support me in this program. To be a better person i just develop myself in the campus with my self confident. I am assisten in laboratory cause i got the trust from my lectures. There are two laboratories that i have: The First, the basic of Plant breeding laboratory , and the second, Biotechnology. Both of that laboratories can encourage myself to be a better person in my campus. To build my self-confident and quality to be a proffesional person, expecially in my subject : Agricultural Sciences. And then,my weakness is I have weakness to manage my budget. But it is not problem to me when i work in  my campus as an activist and work together with my friends in my organisation. We have so many activities and programs in a year. And we often get the benefit from that activities. They are always help me when i got “minus budget” in my live in campus. It is not just that, they always support me when i was down with myself. With togetherness, smile, and happines in our “house” in campus. They are like family to me. And I can not forget their characters in my live.

University Of Sumatera Utara

This is my fisrt University. I am study undergraduate about agriculture here...

Yeah. it's me. There are so many experience here that i want to tell to you friends :). As a student I study at the university, writing the journals, research, organisation, and many more. Now i am in 9th semester. I am still in researching now. :D

A beautiful poetry to my love

Pancaran bulan di malam hari

di antara gelapnya suasana langit

dirimu yang semakin lama menghampiri

hatiku yang dirundung pilu dan sakit

Bintang yang memanggil bulan

tak henti memberikan sinarnya

mencoba untuk memberikan kekuatan

pada hati yang ingin berkata

wajah yang bagaikan bulan temaram

senyum yang membangkitkan semangat

mata yang memberikan harapan

suara yang semakin aku ingat

dirimu yang sangat menawan

aku ingin selalu terikat

dengan cinta yang ada di hati yang terpendam

engkau bak mutiara diantara lumpur hitam pekat

memberikan sesuatu yang berkesan

akan kujaga cinta ini sampai akhir hayat